will you remember me? by evilpinkbunnies, literature
Literature
will you remember me?
will you remember me
when you're old and grey?
will you remember me
and the way i am today?
will you remember me
when you're working late?
will you remember me
and how i would wait?
will you remember me
when you're scared?
will you remember me
and how i cared?
will you remember me
when you're feeling alone?
will you remember me
and how i'd known?
will you remember me
when your life is hard?
will you remember me
and how i'd guard?
i want you to remember me
when you're old and grey.
i want you to remember me
the way i am today.
when you were working late
i would always wait for you.
when you were scared
i would alwa
sometimes,
only sometimes,
i wonder if,
only wonder mind,
life would be better
if i were male.
i've been told,
only a time or five,
that i'd be a good man
(though not quite yet,
cause i'm still young).
i prefer guy clothes
(much more comfortable i think)
i don't really have
a female figure
(more angles than curves)
so sometimes,
only sometimes,
i wonder if,
only wonder mind,
life would be better
if i were male.
dark,small place
blindfolded
tingling in anticipation
which way will Mistress come from?
and when will she come?
will she go for my arms
tied above my head?
or my legs,
tied to the floor?
twitching in anticipation,
the sound of ropes echo
inside my box
Shadows fight.
O, cruel morning
Burning bright
Taking flight
Darkness reigns supreme
O, cruel morning
Shed your heaven sent life
Upon the world
So dark yet light
Youth full prisons
Collect their dues
O, cruel morning
So dark yet light
Day is over
Night's begun
O, cruel morning
Till I see you next on the 'morrow
O, such sweet sorrow
mommy daddy
i love you
i promise
i do
i dont do this
just to spite you
i dont hate you
i love you
mommy daddy
i know i let you down
i know you planned differently
for me
i love the beating throbbing
music so loud it fills your soul
the lights flashing
Morse code orders to dance
no matter with who
mommy daddy
im sorry
i love to rave
i love to party
i love girls too
mommy daddy
im not the perfect little angel
that you wanted
but i love you still
do you love me
Mistress?
where are you?
mewling, whimpering
im scared Mistress
where are you?
why arent you saving me?
why did you leave me heere?
Mistress?
where are you?
im sorry i was bad
i promise ill be good
mewling,whimpering
please Mistress
dont leave me here
whyd you take my collar?
Mistress?
whyd you leave me here alone?
Mistress?
am i still yours?
Mistress?
im scared Mistress
where are you?
whyd you leave me Mistress?
did you abandon me?
i was bad Mistress
you took my collar
and left me here
because i was bad?
is that why Mistress?
i promise ill be good
just come get me
Mistress please
heat
buring
searing
heat
pain
blistering
throbbing
pain
the feeling
the rush
so intense
so thrilling
how long can you hold it?
til it's red?
til it's burned?
til it's blistered?
it's just a little heat
it's just a little pain
it doesn't hurt for long
it's the rush that lasts
pushing yourself
against the pain
keep it to the heat
you dont need that finger anyway
whats a little burn?
a little blister?
a little red mark?
a little heat?
you know you want to
feel the burn
feel the pain
feel the heat
will you remember me? by evilpinkbunnies, literature
Literature
will you remember me?
will you remember me
when you're old and grey?
will you remember me
and the way i am today?
will you remember me
when you're working late?
will you remember me
and how i would wait?
will you remember me
when you're scared?
will you remember me
and how i cared?
will you remember me
when you're feeling alone?
will you remember me
and how i'd known?
will you remember me
when your life is hard?
will you remember me
and how i'd guard?
i want you to remember me
when you're old and grey.
i want you to remember me
the way i am today.
when you were working late
i would always wait for you.
when you were scared
i would alwa
sometimes,
only sometimes,
i wonder if,
only wonder mind,
life would be better
if i were male.
i've been told,
only a time or five,
that i'd be a good man
(though not quite yet,
cause i'm still young).
i prefer guy clothes
(much more comfortable i think)
i don't really have
a female figure
(more angles than curves)
so sometimes,
only sometimes,
i wonder if,
only wonder mind,
life would be better
if i were male.
dark,small place
blindfolded
tingling in anticipation
which way will Mistress come from?
and when will she come?
will she go for my arms
tied above my head?
or my legs,
tied to the floor?
twitching in anticipation,
the sound of ropes echo
inside my box
Shadows fight.
O, cruel morning
Burning bright
Taking flight
Darkness reigns supreme
O, cruel morning
Shed your heaven sent life
Upon the world
So dark yet light
Youth full prisons
Collect their dues
O, cruel morning
So dark yet light
Day is over
Night's begun
O, cruel morning
Till I see you next on the 'morrow
O, such sweet sorrow
mommy daddy
i love you
i promise
i do
i dont do this
just to spite you
i dont hate you
i love you
mommy daddy
i know i let you down
i know you planned differently
for me
i love the beating throbbing
music so loud it fills your soul
the lights flashing
Morse code orders to dance
no matter with who
mommy daddy
im sorry
i love to rave
i love to party
i love girls too
mommy daddy
im not the perfect little angel
that you wanted
but i love you still
do you love me
Mistress?
where are you?
mewling, whimpering
im scared Mistress
where are you?
why arent you saving me?
why did you leave me heere?
Mistress?
where are you?
im sorry i was bad
i promise ill be good
mewling,whimpering
please Mistress
dont leave me here
whyd you take my collar?
Mistress?
whyd you leave me here alone?
Mistress?
am i still yours?
Mistress?
im scared Mistress
where are you?
whyd you leave me Mistress?
did you abandon me?
i was bad Mistress
you took my collar
and left me here
because i was bad?
is that why Mistress?
i promise ill be good
just come get me
Mistress please
heat
buring
searing
heat
pain
blistering
throbbing
pain
the feeling
the rush
so intense
so thrilling
how long can you hold it?
til it's red?
til it's burned?
til it's blistered?
it's just a little heat
it's just a little pain
it doesn't hurt for long
it's the rush that lasts
pushing yourself
against the pain
keep it to the heat
you dont need that finger anyway
whats a little burn?
a little blister?
a little red mark?
a little heat?
you know you want to
feel the burn
feel the pain
feel the heat
Sunshine Spell
May the clouds depart in fear,
Replace the gray with a colorful smear,
Slow the wind, and halt the rain,
Let the sun rise in a golden frame,
Allow its burning arches to fly,
Let it warm the hollow sky.
I am stuck in a body I do not want. I wish to change. I hate to look in the mirror everyday seeing a shape I was forced into.
I hate:
These breasts
This flat chest
This empty air between my legs
This unnecessary stick hanging down
This too long hair no matter what I do
This hair that always seems too short
These stupid skirts I want to burn
These too baggy jeans I'm forced into
Being a female
Being a male
I want to walk down the streets and feel free.
Feel at ease.
The way I'm supposed to be.
I want to feel normal.
Is that so wrong?
Torn between
Emotions colliding
Prolonged misery
Why cant I choose?
Two hearts love
Only one is true
Warring feelings
Never to be discovered
One is here
One is not
One is in my dreams
One is in my heart
Who do I choose?
The one whose heart is true
Or the one whose heart is new
Each delights
Each confuses
Each causes flight
How do I choose?
Between the love I know
And the love unknown
When do I choose?
I never see the love I know
I always see the one Im coming to love
What do I choose?
If the one I love Im afraid to touch
And the one the one I dont love is the only one Ill touch
Wh
Current Residence: slighty between off the deep end road and questionable sanity lane Favourite genre of music: anything you can dance too Favourite style of art: it changes Operating System: Windows MP3 player of choice: one that works? Shell of choice: one that doesnt break? Wallpaper of choice: amusing pictures Skin of choice: my own? Favourite cartoon character: wily coyote Personal Quote: i is bunny not child now lemme out
it's nice to know my parents hate me and think their other children are better. Let's see there's a drug addict high school drop-out who doesn't have a job, one that pretends that this side of the family doesn't exist, another high school drop-out that suicided because he didn't want to take his medication, and a ditzy dumb blonde with a 6 year old son who works at Wal-Mart and won't sue her ex-fiancee for child support because she doesn't want to hurt his feelings. And I'm the fucked up child?
mmk so yes i know its been forever since ive last gotten on and informed all you nosy people about my life cause i know you totally stalk my page going "why hasnt she gotten on?!?!? how am i supposed to keep up with her crazy awesome life if she doesnt post?!?!?!".....ok that might be some sligh hyperbole on my part....>.>
anyhows, life is good at the moment....well it has it bad parts but its mostly good...heres a breakdown of the goods and bads
bads-
not allowed to drive to my girlfriends house
still havent gotten my associates degree
still living with parents
my sister and her fiancee broke up leaving my nephew without a dad
my pare
slightly morbid but it's the truth. i find myself detached while im writing this, as if im a spectator in my own mind. im digressing. my explanation for the title is this, one grandma died of lung cancer on my mother's side and another one is dying of leukemia on my father's side. after her first round of chemotherapy it was discovered that she is severely allergic to chemo, to the point of convulsions. the doctors are currently trying to find a way to slow the cancer's progression. by the way it was phrased by my parents, i am assuming we will be lucky if she survives til christmas.